After reading alot of 's Myspace blogs she makes a valid point about gay marriages and rights.
She is a lesbian, and is married to :3
I feel so basheful talking about them, because its none of my business to be talking about them and supporting them even though I am just another one of their 'fans' from youtube and here.
But I love being a 'fan' because they actually inspired me for alot of things, not just cosplaying or living together with friends. But the closeness of people and what they mean to eachother.
It made me so happy to discover they married along time ago, I already knew they married and watched the wedding when it first came out on youtube <3 And it touched me so.
Because at first I thought it was for stunt-preformance, for attetion seeking, but Naru (supernovedobe or watever you want to call her) informed that it was real, and becuase she and Sasu (antiquity-dreams) wanted that chance to be together forever.
And it saddens me and makes me think of my own self. What am I exactly? I can't really say I'm bisexual, but I'm not straight either.
If I found a nice girl, whose into the things I am into...who understands and will be willing to respect me and do things with me and cherish me, treat me right then of course I'd love her to death. But love is used alot. I mean I would srsly love her, because she would be doing such great things for me, that I don't get alot.
I get respect, I get cherished enough but I want someone willing to do things for me without me asking, or informing them.
does alot of things for me, but usually they cost an arm and leg ;3 but shes such a wonderful friend, even though I'm not so great my self.
I have alot of friends, alot of people whom like me, know me and love me. I also have a boyfriend, whom I think I love at times, but other times his a complete jerk.
But I'm only in High School so I shouldn't be really talking.
Becuase half the time I'm inconsederate and don't know what I am talking about, and my words probably could never reach people.
I do like a few girls and I love my boyfriend, but I would never go out and cheat on him fully with a girl!!!
Oh no I would never cheat on him! Never ever! He would be devestated as so would I.
But I want someone who will accept me and I don't have to feel aggrivated, doomed and humilated in the realtionship.
Yes right now I feel depressed because of my 'drifting' realtionship with my BF and I hope no one talks about this outside of Da :iconxXninjapancakesXx: .....
It hurts me to talk about it but I think DA is the only place, and no one reads journals anyway, so why not post up this?
I'm ranting, and this was a rant to begin with, I need to make a blog or somthing....but I'm to lazy and can't find a good site for it....anyway, in a realtionship shouldn't the couple be happy? At least most of the time?
For me, when my BF left to go some were, I sat on the phone crying until morning, practically ruining his vacation and he knows that I did, his just to loving and forgiving to accept it. No boyfriend who actually is a good boyfriend would right up and say 'you made my vacation horriable.' In fact he told me that he missed me and wasn't having much fun to begin with...I'm to posseive and I should lay off, because I to flirt with others.
He flirts and I do to, so I guess its rightfully fair....
I love <3 I love because they make me feel so much better, even though they will never know about me....(im kind of anti-social and anyomous on the internet XD;; )
I feel horriable just thinking about how I would feel if I had stayed at my old school and went some were else. I wouldn't have the probelms I have now, I would have different, which makes me wonder what would those probelms be?....
Certainly not as bad as these, but I bet every girl has probelms like mine. I'm just to childish and imature to handle it the right way, and I want to cower and cry and make everyone feel bad becuase my bf did this or he did that.
I'm sorry for being posseive of him....I'm sorry for making you feel bad becuase he poked you or touched you or anything....It astonishes me, how he thinks he can do whatever he wants even though he dated me 4 3 years....But comes to show, that even the greatist couples like mine, they still break up even after all the things they've been through. We've been through alot together these past 5 years...I'm growing ever more closer to you, and I feel like I would die if anything bad happened to you...I'm sorry I dont show my affectionate side alot, and I goof off and say the wrong things at the wrong time. Its not my fault, I'm only human. You have your probelms, and I have mine, and it hurts so much to see us fall beneath our emotions because we can't control them. We can never control out emotions no matter what Mr.G says.....emotions run even when we don't want them to.
This whole rant's point...Is that why am I so dobed up on wanting to have a proper realtionship? These are hard times in our lives, going through 9th grade and so on, and hopfully next year will be so much better.
But right now I think I am on my period XD and I want to feel sorry for myself.
I'm sorry who will never be able to read this, I'm sorry becuase of how I treat you and take you for granted at times. And how your realtionship probelms are as rocky as mine.
I'm sorry for not realizing how similuar you and I are. I hate your friends Rachel, I hate Amy, and I hate how I could never have been on the flag team with you. I guess I wasn't good enough. And I still till this day, regret ever not making the flag team. I wanted that so badly, that it crushed me when I didn't make it. Oh how dear it would have been to twirl the flags and dance with you and the others....but I'm not the type I guess, due to the judges decisions. Besides I never worked hard on my practicing, and I complained alot during the whole course and my arms hurt lol
This rant is turning into a confessional....oh god I need to stop now.
This is a book as well I bet XD A book of emotions and Mr.G...and flag line....
Oh yea btw guess who flirts with Chanchan now? Fat-head her self man I sit riht behind them, and I spoke somthing to him, and he looked back at me like he didn't want to talk to me, and he laughed along with April. That astonished me as well, and I probably won't ever see Chandler the same way again. Is he two-faced? I certainly hope not.
Oh well I'll go now....I need to fix up my myspace...and blog all the time but I'm so damn lazy....Oh well I'm going to bed cus its 3:30 am and I have school.
And I'm not doing the 'friends list' bull shit down there V cus I'm lazy. And this is pretty long its self so why add more? xD....Ugh I'm gone.